yeah, so I am sooo sorted. This evening, at the mastery course, I did a cost process on Cathy at work who I felt so resentful of as she is so hopeless, and Rabia. Easy outcomes: Rabia I need to tell that I no longer trust her and that our friendship is at an end. Cathy ....... I decided to love her, and suddenly felt full of love. Can't explain it, it just happened. It would seem that you can just decide to love someone if you can get in touch with your core.

Then Devi goes and blows it all, when I tell them about my experience of the evening afterwards in the pub, by getting all agressive about my feelings of resentment towards Cathy. I was screaming inside ' but I just told you I fucking love her you fucking idiot', but kept my cool and Paul was expert at keeping dialogue going. I missed the last tube home and Devi drove me home, despite living in Heathrow. (I live in Bethnal Green.) We seem to have got on OK, and I don't feel any strong feelings towards her. I suggested that a prolonged analysis of our mutual resentments was perhaps not productive. We talked about countries we had lived in and that was a much easier conversation. I am going to be very pissed off tomorrow however, as I do not anticipate getting my eight hours.

Apart from Devi, I discovered a whole heap of resentments though, enough to keep me going for a while. If processing one can have such a positive result, I am very motivatated to try processing the rest. That' s Marks and Spencer, Roy, Ann, Steven Byers, Dan, Simon, the driver who cut me up on the way to work, Amelda, Felis, that teacher at Westminster college that I can't stand, Hackney council ... and anyone who knows me.